My Stay At The Hospital

I just got out of “Mesa Springs” Hospital 🏥 I’ve been in the hospital almost 20 days this month. I got out at 9:45AM & my MHMR case manager picked me up. The food 🍱 was great and the stay comfortable. I am at “Heritage Day Care Center!” Where I’ve been since I got dropped off.

They put me on some new medicine and I have started to feel better although I have a pretty bad cough. The discharge papers are in an orange 🍊 folder and ready for the manager of Cave Care to view. Hopefully I can see that I can move into the new house on Meadow-brook.

I am planning on going to outpatient therapy and doing the best I can.

Happy 4th Of July

It’s Almost 9AM 🇺🇸 and I’m planning on organizing my room. I have a huge stack of papers to go through & I plan on getting my stuff together for the move to the new house.

Drinking coffee ☕️ and thinking about what I can do to help myself improve in the next couple of months. My Birthday is coming up and I’ll be 34. On Friday; I went to the dentist 🦷 and they did another fitting for my new dentures.

I want to come across as a strong independent woman who doesn’t need that much help from anyone to get what I want in life. One positive way I can become more Independent is too do a good self-assessment of where I am at the current moment.

At the current moment; I am feeling liberated as today is Fourth of July. I’m sitting with my roommate listening to Christian music 🎶 and thinking of what I missed at church this morning. I’m reading through articles on Pinterest & looking forward to lunch. I know I need to do more research and writing about self-improvement to stop negative behavior.

Heat Waves & Hospital Stays

Its 6PM & I got home from the hospital at 3PM; our weather is getting hot 🥵! My group home MGR received my discharge paper work & gave me my five cigarettes. I have been in the “Mesa Springs” 🏥 since the 25th.

I was surprised that My True Mental Health Personnel was taking me to the 🏥 on Friday. I just got informed that we needed to stop 🛑 services with True Mental.

Each day during inpatient rehab we had about five group sessions lead by the Therapist and Nurses. We learned how to communicate better and there were about 9 people in my group in the “Willows Division”! For the most part I drank a lot of coffee and sodas in my new Tumblr and for the last three days I had no cigarettes to smoke 💨.

I’m happy to say I’m home 🏠; I also called & FaceTime with my Dad & he sent me $50 on my Venmo account. I got into the MHMR vehicle and met my new case manager and before he dropped me off at the house he helped me by taking me to the Shell 🐚 and I spent $12 on a pack of American Spirits 🚬🪛 Military Green & a green lighter.

Juneteenth € 16 MM

Just blessed My House Manager wishing her a Happy Juneteenth 🥧 … 🌭 … 🍟 …🥤… Today has been an extremely blessed day 💕 !! I’m mostly Taiwanese & My Grandpa fought in the North Korean War!

Everything happens for a reason! My Father sent me $50… As it’s Friday 💰… My Father also said That we’re going to go out to eat at my favorite restaurant on the 20th! His favorite father is Pop 🥂 PoP Floyd 🍾 @Jin’s by the Target 🎯 I first worked at on Cooper St.

The Love of Your Own History

I can say I have had a couple of relationships with people who have either helped me or hurt me. I have disorganized love attachment; according to articles I have found; check out My Pinterest; in order to check your attachment style. That’s why it’s best for me to stay single & I want to have a good Valentines.

Quotes On Being Single

  • “Single isn’t a status. It’s a word that describes a person who is strong enough to enjoy life without depending on the wrong people.”
  • “It takes a strong person to remain single in a world that is accustomed to settling with anything just to say they have something.” Quote Found On Pins
  • “Being Single & having peace of mind is much better than being in a relationship where you feel single & have no peace of mind.”

As much as I try to get it correct and connect in a caring way things back fire or something goes wrong. I wish their was a way to stop the vicious cycle and with the power of the internet and self-learning; then expressing to “You” My Reader how the information I have found corelates to finding correction to a love of somehow growing and maturing as a community.

The Different Attachment Styles

Normally your parents attachment style will affect your style. Things in your history can affect how you feel towards love and other things within your relationships.

Disorganized Attachment; wants intimacy but fear it, expects to be hurt, faces fear of rejection.

Secure; Comfortable with Intimacy, Self – Sufficient, Capable of Trust, Positive view of self & others.

Anxious; Seeks excessive intimacy, seeks constant reassurance, overly preoccupied with the relationship, Negative view of self.

Avoidant; Uncomfortable with intimacy, overly independent, can seem distant, positive view of self.

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Being vulnerable in today’s society is tough on some; we don’t know what direction to turn to and at times and we don’t know who to turn to. We don’t know if we made a good or bad choice; and sometimes, you just have to get yourself out of a funk. My Dad once told me that guys will do anything to get sex. Which sex isn’t love; and I am planning on sustaining from the negative situation this causes.

As a Single Christian Woman, I haven’t always been as careful as I needed to be in relationships and taking care of myself. I am learning to take things as they come and live one God given day at a time; throughout my depression, anxiety, and most importantly my life is in Gods hands.

Ways To Rock At Being Single or Away From Your Loved Ones While Following God’s Path For Your Life.

  1. Though I have talked to a few cute faces; and we seem to be communicating well. It’s important to stay faithful to your commitments; I wish this could be something I could sit down & talk to a counselor about.
  2. Build and deepen your relationship with God; start having a healthy and loving relationship with yourself and with God. I have been in a funk these last few days; I guess it’s the weather changing, or the way my medications have an effect on me but I have been through my highs and my lows emotionally, without shedding one tear.
  3. Have Honesty, and Trust, and the Courage to be vulnerable. One thing I have learned is not everything is your fault. It is sometimes a hard thing for me to deal with but there are some things we can control and we have to have the courage to let go of the rest. Like when my Dad can’t pick me up on the weekends or something doesn’t go according to plan. I have to find faith in God to just take it as it comes and see that things get better.
  4. As Christians we are to die to ourselves daily and offer grace and love even when we don’t feel like it. A strong relationship with Christ will prepare you for Marriage; I used to think I didn’t want to get Married. I’ve had a few offers and non of them worked out, including my ex which was about 8 years ago; and my son is in the care of my parents and I’m glad to say “The Family Is Doing Good!”
  5. Life is too short to wait for someone to join you in things that you could have done already. Learn with me to daily taking better care of ourselves and finding things to do that you are able and willing to create a fun and interesting life for yourself without going to overboard or ending in jail. Don’t be so eager to change your status romantically or economically. God has you exactly where you are for a reason.

Be Mindful That Love Is Patient.

I need to be considerate that things don’t happen over night; that God takes us one step at a time to shape us into the person he really wants us too become. Quarantine has put The Nation at a quiet time of not being able to go out and do life as we used to. The Spiritual definition of Patience is strength and perseverance and is equal to growth for God and having strength for Him.

God has a perfect plan for us. He never does it all at once he takes it step by step because he wants to teach us to walk by faith and not by sight. I have a tattoo of this on my left ankle that has the quote and a guitar with music notes; I have five tattoos. We have to face the facts that sometimes we are just not in charge. With Trumps impeachment it’s important not to blame the wrong people; and be patient.

We Are All On The Journey To Who Our True Selves Are: God created us all differently; and we all have our own hopes and dreams, our own desires and fears, and our own values and priorities. It’s good to start doing your own personal research on more than just school topics. Research; your interest and seeking ways to get help that can help you become a better version of yourself. I have learned lately I have a passion for self-help articles on Pinterest; I have over 100 boards on Pinterest.

  • What do you do for a living? Do you like it? I worked in retail sales and as a cashier; and am retired. I blog for a hobby and would like to start making some money for writing and doing work online.
  • What’s Important To You? Why? It’s important to me that my creativity is shared with others and I learn to like myself for what I can accomplish.

Begin To Trust Yourself More Often; We can take a leap of faith here and begin to see the good that is happening in life despite the political and health concern of Co-Vid 19. I’m glad to say that no one I know has been affected by the massive outbreak but we are still in Quarantine. I am in slow recovery of becoming a clean and better version of myself and willing to share my journey with my readers. To start with I am writing more and coming up with some great content to provide you with.

Websites Offering More On How To Be Patient & Mindful:

How To Master Patience : 7 Tips To Be More Patient – (ascending-grace.com)