Waking Up to Working Weeks

I started work at McDonald’s when I was chosen at 15 by a 🤴🏿 to work and go to school 🏫 at McNeese College and then they took a dangerous step up ⬆️ to Casa Ole then school got scary 😧 even for myself and my roommate and my whole group of my boyfriends squad of amigos.

My tips weren’t very good 👍 then; I learned too suck it 🆙. My Dad went to MSU and is an engineer 👷‍♀️ ; I was a retail stock agent. From Target 🎯 to Ross To Ross Parole. The last job I worked at was Wal-Mart and yes if you are taking 8 AZO’s helps. Though also helping my 8th Heritage Line is help <Ing>.

Power to me is just Power. I have witnessed all sorts of stuff but the letters I wrote have waking up dangerous stuff. ATM I’m reading and working through “The Night Portrait” asking old friends for Help From what I discovered and am currently discovering 👰🏼‍♂️ and 🧑🏼‍⚖️ to 🥷 and 🧛🏼.

Waking Up Sunday

This is the second or third time I’ve written a similar post and what is it with people trying to take advantage and make their stuff so messy to fit into American Culture? Pride comes before the fall but what if I tried to keep some things private and some things safe and some things secure. After describing some things me and my housemates went through like temper tantrums and tips; we are noticing the Government using our inability to just sit in the hood and be quiet.

I bought a book for $10 at Target; one of our groups closest companions and my hand was tricked as I can tell. I have still not had surgery and my medication is up to three Zoloft’s a day. Why does everyone not understand boundaries and chakra and in my tools and friends Achy Breaky Heart “That’s Me!” from AKA did what? stole what? and asked for what?

It’s not about what is offensive it is about what is enough and once it’s in province and permeant marker you can’t take it away!!!

Saturday Service Postal

When my Dad came to pick me up we went to the Skillet and Grill in Arlington. He handed me two packs of Lucky Strikes and they fell beneath the seats of his hot red fiery truck. Now I’m sitting on my Pumpkin Bed sitting here thinking about the postal notary I just signed and how my Dad got stamps from Eagle Postal. I believe my Dad deserves a real Purple Heart!

Some people have gotten jealous and I found in my Woman Rights class to help your item and your person. Oh! how I would love to make Pumpkin Spice Lattes but the cost is so much and the prices have risen. We feel like were fixing and pulling people out of the grave, the grill, and the places I used to work that got hurt.

The Truth is sorta hurtful if you don’t have the right perspective on life. If you don’t have the right perspective on life you fall in the gutter and when you push all your relationships away most people won’t want anything to do with you.

Ever heard of the band The Postal Service; for some reason it seems people have hacked my ever working book and blog. As I seek help from my father. I have gotten in mediocre trouble with people and instead of working at Heritage sorting mail I’m working at Water Gate chasing Bill Gates Off with The Gang

Camptivated Cultivated Friday

I am told this week to do many things; it hasn’t made me angry in fact it has made me angry. As my Dad put $50 in my bank account I still bought more cigarettes. This was First Baptist Church of DeRidder’s dare for me. We used to play games like stuffy bunny and much more.

Today I picked up that my ex-boyfriend dropped my backpack up and there lay another shabby scary Bible. The one my Mother gave me around Christmas time out of my little sisters box. Today I am told to clean my room and we can only smoke a certain times. I’ll probably be smoking for as long as I live until eternal life. Even with my frozen fingers; maybe someone had a problem with me.

Though there are too many problems in this world to not make a solution. When guys and girls and all they have get taken advantage of who do they turn too? I have had such gang violence that I needed to make sense of it. So last Friday I bought “Create Your Own Journal!” but I need to finish the Cultivated book I just talked about a few blogs ago. …. That’s what I’m doing this friday sorting, reading, and cleaning. Then tomorrow I’m going to sign the paperwork with my family at the church Fielder Road Baptist Church notery.

Smoking My Vaporizer

We can wake up and join you but your feeling of uncertainty can hurt 😞 sometimes. I got jealousies that are discerning about my vaporizer. My Dad bought me tigers blood 🩸 which has messed up my 🧮 . It’s good to do what you can for yourself and your family. Medical research has trash 🗑 duty.

Tokyo War tactics: everyone is special but how special. Afterlife has all my recycling and it was my favorite club. Taking someone else’s special stuff can hurt so son don’t hit us.

Friday’s Fall Favorites

I sorted through my clothes yesterday and found a lot of nice colored shirts 👚 (about 10 of them) and about 7 pairs of pants. I want to have a more pieced together wardrobe and define my personal style. Right now I’m wearing a multi-colored shirt and magenta pants that match my purse 👛.

My caseworker is on his way to come pick me up from Heritage and we’re going to do something fun. I have my Wound Evolution appointment at 1:30PM. My fingers feel a lot better and I’m not going to have to have surgery.

I have $28 to go shopping today & I want to get some nice stuff for my room, or add some accessories to my wardrobe. I looked online and I have noticed how picky I am when it comes to shopping 🛍. I bought some lip gloss from my housemate who sales Avon. Two of them strawberry 🍓 and melon 🍈 for $3.

Thursday Thought-fullness

Me and my housemate went out today with our caseworker; first to McDonald’s and a gas station where I bought a pack of L&Ms and At McDonald’s I bought a large 🍟 fry and a large coffee ☕️. Then we went shopping and I didn’t buy much but three bags of candy and Pepsi. Then we went to the museum.

Being Thoughtful includes making time for others. I’m glad our caseworker was able to spend some time with us. Tomorrow he’s coming in the morning to spend time with me and my housemate again.

I’m sitting on the fresh carpet and folding clothes. On Tuesday & Thursday I call my Dad and we talk. I’m happy I get to see my parents Saturday. Although I won’t be able to see the little one.

Waking Up To Wednesday

Today’s Wednesday and we’re staying home from The Center. We woke up at 7AM and finished putting our stuff in the closet and taking our twin beds 🛌 to the room downstairs. Then our Care Taker gave us our medication 💊.

When I woke up It was 6AM. We are having carpet replaced with laminate floors. I am hoping to go to my parents house this Friday to sign the papers of adoption to my son.

Ways To Make Time For Family 👩🏻‍❤️‍👨🏻 When You Don’t Live Together or See each other daily.

1. Be open minded and seek professional help when needed. If your not seeing eye 👁 to eye; and you have to have a good future goal for yourself and being with the people you love 💕.

2. Love unconditionally & Forgive one another without bringing up the past.

3. Sort through your problems and see where you can fit the most important people in your schedule.

4. Be grateful and show them you care.

5. Be respectful and responsible for boundaries.

My Family relationships aren’t perfect but through working to improve myself and keep my word of not leaving The Group Home. I’m hoping to rebuild the bridges I have messed up. I I have faith that God will help me to be able to make amends and we can move past difficult times.

I have to learn to not make the same mistakes again and to keep going forward in life. Without dwelling on the past. The surgeon said yesterday that surgery was optional and that their healed up and to just keep them clean. They don’t hurt anymore and I am glad I didn’t have to have surgery. Oh! The scars and scabs of life.

Tuesday’s Team Work

What does it take to be a leader? In my opinion it takes some time to get used to the people you work with. Knowing you can trust people; and trying to gain trust in return. Once you have built good teamwork going relationships you need to take pride in the current moment and keep a Christian Perspective on small improvements.

12 Steps To Amazing 🤩 Team Work

1. Everything gets better in time but you can’t just stop 🛑 the process when trials get in the way. For instance when a problem has occurred at The Group Home 🏡 I have learned not to be part of the drama and I’m better staying out of it.

The police 👮‍♀️ have had to come in to take care of some situations but I haven’t been in any danger and I keep calm knowing I am not causing problems.

2. You have to want to be a team player and not take a backseat to life. Your life is your life but more importantly it’s a gift 💝 from “God Of Nation Armies” !!!

Don’t seek out a role you’re not ready for and take time to see where you can best fit your needs while also meeting the needs of others in the group.

3. Check out a personality profile on 🥰 https://www.16personalities.com/ ! I’m an INTP; meaning I am a deep thinker and an introvert who loves to learn.

4. Focus on the positive aspects of your situation & it takes just one person to set a bad vibe to the whole tribe. We can all tell when we are having a good time together but be aware because as good as the situation can get. There’s always something that can throw yourself and your team off track. So be prepared when this happens by having a back up plan.

5. Seems my caseworker is running a bit late ⏰! Don’t fret over something you can’t control but make sure you keep your word and don’t flake or cause drama over not getting your way. Be patient and ready for whatever life or the project that needs to be completed ✅ calls for.

6. Communication is key; and I have learned a lot as a Communication Major. I like to discuss the things that I am learning to my readers and tell of my stories and how the things I learned are useful in my life.

7. Things work better when you cooperate and stop fighting to always get your way. When things don’t work out the way you planned on them take a step back and see what could have happened differently. Just because it didn’t happen when you wanted it to doesn’t mean it won’t; so stick in there and don’t beat yourself up.

8. There is no I in Team! We all end up as a part of the group and most of this is what we learned in school 🏫 when you see yourself drifting off or someone being excluded 👽 pick up the pieces.

10. My caseworker is here and I rescheduled my appointment for 1PM; when it was at 10:45AM. We’re going to drive around and then go to the Dollar Tree 🌲. I took initiative in my own hands and wasn’t sure if I made a good decision. He said thank you.

I haven’t always been consecutive about my choices or habits. Though since My 34rd Birthday I have received so much help with getting my life together. I willingly want to continue down a good path and see daily consecutive improvement.

My Caseworker is coming soon and everyone left to go to the center that they go to. Except for the elderly woman who I shared a room with for a little bit as she kept waking me up in the middle of the night.

Monday’s Moody Motivation

I’m glad I just got off my period. Drinking my last bit of coffee ☕️ and we had oatmeal & sausage for breakfast. It’s Monday & that means a fresh week at Heritage. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed as I am trying to go through my life’s categories binder writing ✍️ down notes from what I’ve learned about on Pinterest and in my courses.

It’s good to find what is at the core of your obstacles and to how to better define yourself. Though not through becoming codependent and denying yourself at someone else’s expense. I am responsible for my words, actions, and belief system without trying to make people feel upset that they don’t understand me.

I am responsible for my efforts, mistakes, and consequences. It’s important that I stay true to myself and my family and group. I go to see a surgeon tomorrow for my hand 🤚.