Smoking My Vaporizer

We can wake up and join you but your feeling of uncertainty can hurt 😞 sometimes. I got jealousies that are discerning about my vaporizer. My Dad bought me tigers blood 🩸 which has messed up my 🧮 . It’s good to do what you can for yourself and your family. Medical research has trash 🗑 duty.

Tokyo War tactics: everyone is special but how special. Afterlife has all my recycling and it was my favorite club. Taking someone else’s special stuff can hurt so son don’t hit us.

Selfish Self🥰Care SunDay

You can tell when you’ve improved and when you take 10 steps forward; or 10 steps backwards. Do you compete for everything in your life? For example attention and financial stability.

10 Steps To 10 Steps Forward

1. Tell the truth about yourself & stop wearing the mask 😷 of denial.

2. Keep your secrets safe; if your discretion is advised be sure you weren’t 🏨 in a class with “Pretty Little Liars” like I was in 2014.

3. Courageous Talk & Actions take time and If it seems worth a lot to you, You end up taking a stand and making the most of important interventions.

4. The Train & The Sun ☀️ 😘 🚂 ; make the most of your life and seek things you want because you want and not because someone else wants.

5. Personal Relationships Maybe A Little Lonely 😞 when we don’t see eye to eye with each other’s points of view we get discouraged. Stop and check biased opinions about yourself and copartners situation before jumping to conclusions or making a mess or an ass out of yourself.

6. Jog your memory to accomplish where your road blocks are. When you see what good versus evil is in your deeds and actions you’ll strive to become greater or remain constant.

7. Don’t push your opinion onto people when it benefits you and your group you’ll feel it and stop with the defensive attitude.

8. You can’t take care of anyone or anything when you’re not at your best but you add more danger ⚠️ than good. Get yourself right then you can but not until then. Thanks Dad!

9. Silence is sometimes Golden 🧐 Research 🤩 and don’t jump to conclusions. Be respectful and responsible to prepare yourself when good times do arrive.

10. If your on daily medication 💊 take them wisely and safely that’s why the Doctor 👨‍⚕️ and Lawyers went to So Expensive of Schools 🏫 so we know we are getting the best of help. You can call 📞 #211 and get yourself set up like we are through having work experience and a hard medical background.

In my opinion this is wrong and we should be seeing eye to eye that we want to improve the freedom and grace of everyone in the group. Mr. Jones and I have a good relationship hell Harley Davidson and I have a good relationship. Though thankfully my manager and my Group Home 🏡 Mom’s are starting to see eye 👁 to eye with me as I strive to improve.

I appreciate all sorts but not when it’s distrustful and as insecure as our Political System has been of lately. I’m more of a conservative and Republican than a demote full liberal equalities activist.

Taking 10 Steps Backwards In The Backwoods

1. Try not to see your own self as a threat. You can tell when there is a problem and your unsafe.

2. It comes as a sensation to do wrong things that you know you shouldn’t and your too ashamed to ask for help.

3. Written words work; today must be journal 📓 therapy on Pinterest since I came to this many helpful tips for my readers. Though as you can tell keeping words isn’t always easy. Back sliding isn’t always a nice idea 💡 or even your idea but there are reasons behind it.

4. Doesn’t help to keep it all bottled up and yes I was a bartender at one time but there’s boundaries you need to learn about.

5. Trust is earned and it’s best to try to earn it the hard way than taking it out on other people and burning 🔥 bridges 🌉 lose selfish pride.

6. We all live by forward motion and everything affects everything it’s how God programmed it and know your not in charge no matter how rich or powerful you are.

7. Voices are simply that voices and words are fueled to the fire 🔥 things will work better if you get to all the proper understanding before starting some big rioting outbursts.

8. Think about what you really want … is it your safety or your pride and is it your rights or your voice just to be heard.

9. We struggle together and it’s safer in numbers. We can learn to use the help and opinions of everyone to get to a conclusion of what works best.

10. Stop trying to do life all by yourself but don’t indulge in a situation that’s against your best interest to please people or try to suck up to other people.

I’m a Liberal Arts Major but I’ve learned too keep my mouth 👄 closed in the enduring time of Co-Vid19. My Dad & I haven’t had nearly as many new and fun interesting conversations as when Trump was blasting from the Media Scene.

Some People feel they don’t learn until they have approval by the mass of crowds they desire. Like adding new stuff to my blog. I would love 💕 if people contributed to the form for below my blog post to add me a tip. Yes “uno dinero” is just as good as anything and I try hard to give all due respect and gratitude to as many people as I can.

Heritage & Home

I am sipping on the rest of my coffee; sitting 🪑 here and I just had oatmeal and a cigarette. Cannot go back outside till 12 o’clock and I need to cut down on smoking so many cigarettes.

I’m reading “The Explicit Gospel” by Matt Chandler. Or at least that’s the book 📚 I brought with me. I slept most of the weekend.

In this book 📖 I am reading about the fall of man. How Solomon tried to find pleasure but found it all meaningless. How perfection stopped with sin and it can’t be filled with anything but God.

I have tried to find this in the world 🌎 also; and I’ve learned and am learning to be happy where I am instead of making things worse.

Everyone is looking for meaning and happiness and fulfillment. These desires are the things that make us do what we do. I am content where I am.

Tuition Prices & Wisdom

What is your relationship with money? Where is the most expensive school you’ve ever attended? I went to Texas Wesleyan for Productions and Humanities. I am planning on starting more YouTube videos and starting a series. Snapchat was our primary source of our learning experience. I need to sort through and look at my Transcript. I am having to payback Texas Wesleyan $8,000.

I Miss My Old Guitar & Being Musically Inclined. This video was taken about 10 – 12 years ago.

My times at UTA; where another expensive time in my life and I have an outstanding loan for about $4,000. Man! I need to purchase some Blue Tooth Headphones. It would probably be cheaper to buy them online, huh?

This morning I listened to a Podcast using the app Player FM and I’m loving listening to Podcast. The Topic was Social Anxiety Disorder; by “BlindBoyBoatClub”. He talked about how we have a child, adult, and parent side to us.

I wanted to get my backpack and purse back from a friend of mine but my main person wouldn’t let me. Instead of what I normally would have done; by getting upset I took it gently and didn’t get upset and I probably won’t get my stuff back but I have been blessed with mostly everything I need.

Telling The Truth

I haven’t always been at my best; but during the dark times God has gotten me through it. I just went outside to go smoke and finished a third cup of coffee. As I was finishing a couple of my housemates came outside. Today we’re going to Heritage; soon I’ll be able to work in the office. As long as I don’t let cigarettes or excuses get in the way. We have to stick to our assigned smoking times.

“On a good day, enjoy yourself; on a bad day, examine your conscience. God arranges for both kinds of days. So that we won’t take anything for granted.:

Ecclesiastes 7 : 14

In the book of Ecclesiastes chapter 8; reading from The Message. The author talks about Not taking anything for granted. How building a good reputation is important and not investing in hurt and grieving. I know it’s been a rough Co-Vid 19 crisis and I just got tested. I am planning on getting my shot soon. Also I have my injection tomorrow.

I have notebooks I like writing in. Especially “The Serenity Prayer” journal my parents bought me for My Birthday. Yesterday was my roommates 34th Birthday. Though I need to call the wound specialist and set an appointment to have my hand looked at. It still hurts; but hopefully everything will work out and it’ll be able to get fixed. I use my right hand to write and don’t know if that’s a good idea; even though I love writing. This lesson has taught me not to journey off by myself. Especially not during a winter storm.

Making The Most Of It

Making The Most Of What God Gives

“After looking at the way things are on this earth 🌎, here’s what I’ve decided is the best way to live: Take care of yourself, have a good time, and make the most of whatever job you have for as long as God gives you life. And that’s about it. That’s the human lot.”

Ecclesiastes 5: 19 – 23

I spoiled my self today and bought a Pumpkin Spice Frappuccino at Starbucks for $6; I’m trying to find other things that give me peace besides smoking cigarettes. My case manager picked me up from Heritage and we went to a cool discount store, 5 and below, The Spirit of Halloween, and Target. I didn’t buy anything else but seriously I’m trying to cut back on cigarettes.

One way we can make the most of life; is to plan accordingly and always be prepared. My hand is still pretty messed up on the right. I have been taking my antibiotic and my Dr. gave me some iodine but I only have one left.

Ecclesiastes 1 – 3

We can choose to become a prisoner of our own minds and breaking out of the habit of beating yourself up can be hard. Though it is one thing I have been working on. I have enrolled in two courses on coursera.org to change this kind of thinking behavior.

The Author of Ecclesiastes states that everything he did or was doing would amount to nothing but smoke. Don’t get me wrong but; that seems to be the highlight of my housemates and me, is smoking throughout the day. I would like to cut back on my smoking. I spend a lot of money on smoking; and it’s my goal to quit buying cigarettes. In the last month I’ve probably spent $75 on cigarettes.

” And I hated everything. I’d accomplished and accumulated on this earth. I can’t take it with me – no. I have to leave it to whoever comes after me. Whether their worthy or worthless – and who’s to tell? – they’ll take over the earthly results of my intense thinking and hard work. Smoke.”

Ecclesiastes 2 : 18 – 19

I only make $150 a month and am currently looking for more income. Though to do that I’ll have to be healthy and more proficient with my time. I however, unlike this author of Ecclesiastes. Don’t feel my life has amounted to nothing. I feel God has really blessed me; but I haven’t been a good steward of the gifts and abilities that He has given to me. I have had very tough times in my life where I have completely destroyed my health.

” But in the end, does it really make a difference what anyone does? I’ve had a good look at what God has given us to do – busywork, mostly. True, God made everything beautiful in itself and in it’s time – but he’s left us in the dark, so we can never know what God is up to, whether he is coming or going. I’ve decided that there’s nothing better to do than go ahead and have a good time and get the most we can out of life. That’s it – eat, drink, and make the most of your job. It’s God’s Gift!”

Ecclesiastes 3 : 9 – 13

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haven’t used since my Birthday; and since my Birthday I have been doing much better. I have so much to be grateful for and I want to do better each day that God gives me. I am learning to better use my time. As my manager at Heritage recently offered me a position in the office.