About JohnnaFloyd

I'll turn 34 Years old; on July 28th. I am learning to make something out of my life and taking it one step at a time. I deal with the relationships God has placed in my life and dealing with my mental disorders. I love my family and have live at Cave Care for almost 6 years. I love to learn and spend time reflecting on ways I can better relate to people and myself.

Labor Day Weekend

Happy Labor Day! Today we we’re allowed to smoke whenever we wanted too. We had Sweet Rolls for breakfast and pizza for lunch. We celebrate Labor Day because of the work we have endured as individuals. I have worked at Good Will, Target, and Ross in the past. These we’re pretty good working experiences.

Family Day

This morning after I had woken up at 6AM; and we had coffee and a few cigarettes as a group. My Dad came to pick me up with the little one, who says he’s always appreciative. We went to Skillet & Dinner for breakfast. It was a nice treat and I had waffles and sausage. We did science experiments and listened to Kidz Bop and watched a cartoon. Then Dad and I went to McDonald’s and then went to Supercuts to get haircuts.

September

Woke up this morning at 6AM; went to bed early. I know that It’s a new month and fall is here. Waiting for the heat to turn to a cooler breeze. My Dad paid my rent and I’m home and safe. I’m listening to some motivational videos.

I love to learn new things and I’m all caught up on my homework for my courses from coursera.org and am wondering through the course catalog searching for more that I may be interested in. I have an extensive Pinterest Board List and want to start making some money by blogging, although blogging for profit has never really turned out good for me.

My little one got in trouble yesterday for hitting a kid at school. I know times can be tough; and insecurities run deep. I’m learning how to deal with people nicely and respectfully also. We have to learn, and sometimes it’s the hard way, that we can’t always do what we want without consequences.

Last Day Of August

I am enjoying taking my online courses on coursera. Yesterday I completed my homework and I used my new notebook to take notes. I am taking Wellbeing, Parenting, and Poetry. Yesterday we went to the corner store which isn’t too far but in the heat it’s kind of far about a mile. I walked with my housemate to the store and bought two large cans of Big Red and a pack of supreme cigars. Our care giver just came by and gave us our medicine.

Then my case manager came by and we went to Brauhm’s and got a cookies and cream milkshake and a thing of fries. She asked me if I had ever done deep breathing exercises and if I would consider to stop smoking. I’m still waiting for my dentures and am excited about getting them; but more about how I’m going to take care of them and not lose them this time.

A few weeks ago on my Birthday one of my case managers bought me a Goals Journal. In the journal there’s Monthly Goals. For this month my goals were too,,,

My Top Three Core Values

  1. Family & Group Life
  2. Integrity & Persistence To Wellness
  3. God & Learning

My Goals We’re

  1. Receive and Take Care Of My Dentures
    Seems rushing things doesn’t help it’s the last day of the month and I still have two more sit downs with the dentist to receive my dentures. I am so thankful that my insurance is paying to get a pair of dentures. It’s been since 2016; since I’ve had teeth in my mouth. Called Medico this morning and they we’re closed.
  2. Set a Good Morning and Afternoon and Night Routine.
    I meant this to be good but seems I still haven’t achieved that goal. I want to have the best days I can and stop myself from being so lazy and really too start caring about life more. I still read lots of articles on Pinterest daily mostly while I’m at Heritage. Though seems our days lately have been geared towards smoking cigars or cigarettes and complaining. The planner I bought is being put in good use as a Gratitude Journal. I have had many days this month I have been blessed by.
  3. Stay At Group Home.
    I’ve learned the hard way to just stay home or only go out with trusted care-givers. I want to increase my safety and have my Family trust me more and more. I can improve through daily small actions and being accountable for what I am doing.
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Current Events

My little one got checked for Co-Vid19 and we’re happy to say he doesn’t have it. I bought him a toy car today, and me a notebook to do my assignments from Coursera in.

I’m watching the news; the United States has completed it’s Mission in Afghanistan. My Father is a Veteran of Operation Enduring Freedom. 6,000 Americans out of Afghanistan . . . They have been there for 20 years and now we can celebrate that they are home.

Being Careful

I hit my hand and started talking in some weird gibberish I don’t quite understand. I say I don’t understand it because I was embarrassed. Has anyone else ever had the feeling of being yourself but not quite sounding like yourself. This is something that has happened to me for the past seven to ten years. I think they call it imposter syndrome . . .

Anyway; The voices were talking about how the person couldn’t help that he doesn’t have health care. I am so lucky to be on SSDI; despite my many battles with insecurity. I have a great support system here and don’t want to make the mistakes I have before of leaving the safety and security I’m currently and hopefully will be in for a long time.

As the season is changing; I am starting to feel better. I just got my injection from MHMR Friday. Our weekend has been pretty uneventful and it’s been mostly calm and silent. Hoping to have a good day at Heritage Day Care Center.

My little one got checked for Co-Vid19 and we’re happy to say he doesn’t have it. I bought him a toy car today, and me a notebook to do my assignments from Coursera in.

I’m watching the news; the United States has completed it’s Mission in Afghanistan. My Father is a Veteran of Operation Enduring Freedom. 6,000 Americans out of Afghanistan . . . They have been there for 20 years and now we can celebrate that they are home.

Sunday Bible Study

I haven’t been involved in a Bible Study in a long, long, . . . time. Honestly the last time I went to church was over two months ago. I’m listening to Motivational Videos and researching how to do my morning Bible Study. I want to draw closer to God and really trust him. It says to not lean on your own understanding and that we’re not in charge.

Joyce Meyer’s : How To Study The Bible

https://joycemeyer.org/everydayanswers/ea-teachings/how-to-study-the-bible

I need a change in perspectives and my attitudes; lately my housemates have stated that I’ve become more like myself after I got out of rehab right before my 34rd Birthday. Don’t look at what you don’t have; look at what you do have and thank God for everything you already have. Trust God to restore your body, soul, mind, and spirit.

“And so this is still a live promise. It wasn’t canceled at the time of Joshua; otherwise, God wouldn’t keep renewing the appointment for “today.” The promise of “arrival” and “rest” is still there for God’s people. God himself is rest. And at the end of the journey we’ll surely rest with God. So let’s keep at it and eventually arrive at the place of rest, not drop out through some sort of disobedience.”

Hebrews 5 8 – 11

Every time I read God’s word I find insight and understand greater amounts about God’s love for all of us. I really needed this verse . . . I have given up too much and too easily. I don’t want to talk about how many times I have run away or how I dropped out of college. We are all on a journey; and my life has been better managed here. I stepped outside to smoke a cigarette while I was in the middle of the verse. One of our daily highlights of the day. Your opinion does or doesn’t matter; I respect you all because you have come to read my blog.

Reading The Bible At Home

I still haven’t finished my book “Captivated” by Staci and John Townsend; I’ll read another chapter today. I read Proverbs 20 – 21; this morning and I am so happy we have God’s word to abide by.

Woke up at 6:15AM; We had a rough night here at the group home. A new lady kept coming into me and my roommates room turning my lamp on and asking to use the phone at 11:45AM. Another new guy just left with a bad attitude; and he took my backpack that I lent to one of the guys here.

I just mentioned to my Home Manager that I had been blogging and she said she was proud of me. In my Instagram photos you can see the pictures of my fingers and the other day my Case Manager took me to JPS to get my hand looked at. They took x-rays and i gave blood although the Doctor said nothing was wrong with them and sent me home.

My Home Manager said it would be good to talk about my experiences and what goes on at the group home. I talked to my returning housemate and she said she was interested in starting a blog also; so I’m going to help her set one up. Hopefully when I get back from Heritage Day Care Center. The pastor is coming to pick us up in a little bit . . . about 30 minutes from now.

My other housemate goes to the center with me. The other ones went to Golden Choice. At the centers we have breakfast and lunch and we color or write. Sometimes we play BINGO and we watch movies or tv. I love getting my coffee in the morning and most of the time ask for a second cup. Most of us are in this situation because we are disabled; but that doesn’t mean any less of us. God made us all and all of us are special.

Back To School

I’d like to go back to school but first I need to contact my Colleges Academic Advisor to see in which direction my degree plan will work out. I know I have completed about 114 hours in Advertising and Public Relations. I haven’t done anything academically since I dropped out of UTA in February of 2017. It’s been six years; since I’ve done anything academically.

I did find however Coursera.com where I can take online classes for free. I enrolled in one called The Science Of Wellbeing. It’s online and I measured how happy I am and I scored a 2.3. I have been living here since 2016 and have a good number of friends. I am glad to be safe and protected by the house care givers here.

I haven’t been blogging lately; My Group Home manager said it would be good for me to start my blog back again earlier when my Dad took me and the family’s little guy to go buy laptops when we got out 2nd Stimulus check. I need to research the things I’d like to talk about in future blog post. I bought The Message and I’d like to read more of it and share with my readers what I am learning. I’d like to post at least three times a week.

Reasons To Love

Love is patient, love is kind, love doesn’t envy, it doesn’t boast, it holds no record of wrong. 1 Corinthians 13

The definition of resilience means being able to get back up after you have failed in someway. That’s one reason I love myself. After I have messed up I eventually come back to my senses and recognize what was wrong.

I have a good personality especially on my good days. I now have come to a point where I am not fighting with life and am actually going to God and people that are here to help me.

I have inner ambition and am happier when I am at my best instead of being depressed and upset.