Starting a new chapter in life as a 34 year old. I want to be more responsible for where I will end up three to five to even ten years from now. I can’t go anywhere and it’s best that I just stay here and enjoy life the best I can. I have been reading the book “Captivated” and we are the Bride of Christ. Meaning that he gave us life and everything we do should bring him glory and honor.
As August approaches; I am reminded to remain where I am planted. To keep doing my best everyday and trust God with the direction of my life; and not to act out of my own will.
We didn’t go to The Center today; but my Case Manager just took me out to eat at Braum’s. We just had dinner of pork chops.
Sitting on my bed at the Group Home; where I do most of my typing for my blog. I sent my parents a sweet text message; that they haven’t responded back too. Hopefully we are able to go eat dinner on Wednesday at Ninja Sushi for my Birthday. I’ll be 34 in two days; meaning I need to start following life rules better and stay in better health using all the help provided.
I love reading my new book “Cultivated” By John & Stasi Eldridge which I got a Goodwill; and it’s been a great means to getting me back in check to my Christian walk with the Lord. We just did the chores around the house . . . I helped by wiping down both bathroom counter surfaces and cleaning the toilets and sweeping the floor. Now that I’m almost 34; I’m finding it in myself that I want to do the right things.
I want to be there for my Family and my son; I have had a pretty rocky relationship with several good times in between since 2016. I had the best intentions on New Years of this year but seems I still messed up. That’s part of being human; but there must come an age where all of that has to end. I want my son to see that I really do care about him. I was so excited when he asked me to come over last Thursday; and I facetime my family on Tuesday’s and Thursday’s.
Everything here is safe; and I can’t jeopardize my safety. Time to start a new and healthier was of life that will benefit myself and my loved ones; as another chapter of my life comes to a close.
Going to stay sober this weekend; and mostly mind my own business. Going over to that trailer isn’t what’s idea for me. Especially since I’ve spent 20 Days in inpatient rehab and I told my Case Manager I wouldn’t go over there anymore. I am going to organize all my stuff this weekend. I still have a bad cough and I still don’t feel 100%!
I have the room to myself on Hightower St. and listening to T.A.T.U.; I went to Goodwill today and bought a hot pink and black backpack and a pair of Rainbow Stripped Nike sneakers.
Found my vaporizer; … be careful who you trust! I had a good day at Heritage Center. I won some Mike N’ Ike’s Tropical Typhoon. Just got done smoking a cigarette and talking with Dad on FaceTime. There’s no TV in here but I love my mini HP laptop.
I got two books today; Captivating by John & Stasi Eldridge and The Night Portrait by Laura Morelli. I need some more vapor oil and the weather is so hot that your ice cream would automatically melt.
When I FaceTime’d My family yesterday my 7 year old wanted to see me. I was excited since I haven’t gotten to see him in a long time.
First we went to 711; and Dad handed me $25. My little boy got recess pieces and a medium slur-pie… I got a pack of Teal American Spirits & a medium slur-pie. At the house we went swimming and tried to get the printer 🖨 to print some bookmarks. Then we had Wendy’s for dinner.
I need to work on creating the best me there possibly is… After all nothing is new under the sun; but I am an individual who hasn’t been completely honest. I have had a bad cough for the last week and don’t know how long it will last. I got out of the hospital yesterday; and today I went to the Dentist with MHMR. Two more trips to the Dentist and I’ll be able to get my dentures. Doing my best to stay honest and helpful and considerate that I’m not welcome to where I was about the time I went in to the hospital the second time. Which means I am here at the house and won’t have anywhere to go.
Things happen for all sorts of reasons; the most important thing is too learn from the past and stop letting it control your life. I just got home from Heritage Day Care Center… After I went to the Dentist; where I was able to pick out the gum and teeth shade to my dentures… My case manager and I went shopping at the Dollar Tree.
I bought two coloring books, a journal, some pencil sharpeners, a coffee, and a puzzle for my little boy, and two bags of gummies. Waiting till 3:30PM to FaceTime with my folks.
I just got out of “Mesa Springs” Hospital 🏥 I’ve been in the hospital almost 20 days this month. I got out at 9:45AM & my MHMR case manager picked me up. The food 🍱 was great and the stay comfortable. I am at “Heritage Day Care Center!” Where I’ve been since I got dropped off.
They put me on some new medicine and I have started to feel better although I have a pretty bad cough. The discharge papers are in an orange 🍊 folder and ready for the manager of Cave Care to view. Hopefully I can see that I can move into the new house on Meadow-brook.
I am planning on going to outpatient therapy and doing the best I can.
It’s Almost 9AM 🇺🇸 and I’m planning on organizing my room. I have a huge stack of papers to go through & I plan on getting my stuff together for the move to the new house.
Drinking coffee ☕️ and thinking about what I can do to help myself improve in the next couple of months. My Birthday is coming up and I’ll be 34. On Friday; I went to the dentist 🦷 and they did another fitting for my new dentures.
I want to come across as a strong independent woman who doesn’t need that much help from anyone to get what I want in life. One positive way I can become more Independent is too do a good self-assessment of where I am at the current moment.
At the current moment; I am feeling liberated as today is Fourth of July. I’m sitting with my roommate listening to Christian music 🎶 and thinking of what I missed at church this morning. I’m reading through articles on Pinterest & looking forward to lunch. I know I need to do more research and writing about self-improvement to stop negative behavior.
Its 6PM & I got home from the hospital at 3PM; our weather is getting hot 🥵! My group home MGR received my discharge paper work & gave me my five cigarettes. I have been in the “Mesa Springs” 🏥 since the 25th.
I was surprised that My True Mental Health Personnel was taking me to the 🏥 on Friday. I just got informed that we needed to stop 🛑 services with True Mental.
Each day during inpatient rehab we had about five group sessions lead by the Therapist and Nurses. We learned how to communicate better and there were about 9 people in my group in the “Willows Division”! For the most part I drank a lot of coffee and sodas in my new Tumblr and for the last three days I had no cigarettes to smoke 💨.
I’m happy to say I’m home 🏠; I also called & FaceTime with my Dad & he sent me $50 on my Venmo account. I got into the MHMR vehicle and met my new case manager and before he dropped me off at the house he helped me by taking me to the Shell 🐚 and I spent $12 on a pack of American Spirits 🚬🪛 Military Green & a green lighter.